Chaos

There really are days that just leave you speechless. Not because of all the good things that happened..no..its usually all the negatives that just leave you standing there in the middle of the street, or in some cases, sitting on the trunk of your car thinking why all this had to happen. Is happyness (yes I intentionally misspelled "happiness") really that fickle? Does it really just sink in out of the blue one day and disappear the next? Whats funny is that you hear great things from other people and you feel good about whats going on. Everyday just seems like a different day for you to experience a different kind of happyness but then it just takes one day, one instance for it to just all come crashing down on you like an avalanche that leaves you entrapped inside your own mind. You start to wonder why. Why everything just had to change rather than you being able to live in complete and utter bliss. In a sense I guess that means that God is fair. There will always be two sides to a coin, repercussions to certain actions that you take. Call it anything you want but to me this is chaos.